Winter has come back again Feels like the season won’t end My faith is dying tonight And I won’t try to pretend I’ve got it all figured out I don’t have any doubts I’ve got a busted heart I need You now Yeah, I need You now (Chorus) Hold on to me, hold on to me Don’t let me lose my way Hold on to me I am the wandering son Your love is never enough I keep chasing the wind Instead of chasing Your love I’m screaming out Your name Don’t let me fall on my face I’ve got a busted heart I’m in need of a change I’m desperate for grace Hold on to me, take all of me Don’t let me lose my way Hold on to me Broke Your heart a thousand times But You’ve never left my side You have always been here for me You never let me go You never let me go Don’t ever let me go Hold on to me, hold on to me Don’t let me lose my way Hold on to me Hold on to me, take all of me Don’t let me lose my way Hold on to me Until it comes to an end Soon this season will end I’ll surrender tonight You meet me right where I am. -Hold On by King and Country.

If His grace is an ocean than we’re all sinking! How He loves us.

It is our Father’s grace which sustains us. It is His grace that produces in us the Fruit of the Spirit to be evident so that Christ is on display in our lives. We will never be enough. His grace is. Jesus Christ is enough!

We’ve heard studies about people on Facebook after x amount of years experience a level of depression, as a result of reading the glamorous things others share about their lives. First of all, Facebook is surface. It isn’t the place to share drama. The majority of people post wonderful things.. Everybody has got the friend that focuses on the negative.. Yea, that’s no good. Don’t be fooled. Your identity is not in a silly social media site. Don’t forget that anyone can be whoever they want behind a computer. Nobody has got it altogether. Nobody! Real life happens in real relationships.

I love to blog, to share, to post, to socialize. I noticed today… Well, let me just say, that I felt very led to share with you that it’s not always a grand ol’ party with candy, balloons and laughter. I am the least of these. I am my own worst enemy. I do things I don’t want to do. I struggle, fall, drop,to my knees and sometimes let those broken tears run down until there is no more left. I desire for my flesh to die. Paul said to die is to gain. Putting something to death is extreme. It’s intense and it’s painful. Those moments…. In the ashes… I pray that the flames burn away the things that are of me, and not of Him. Empty me! Fill me with You!! Painfully beautiful. That’s what we call it. The necessary brokenness that strengthens our faith. We are filled, to be emptied again.

I don’t want easy. I desire, regardless the pain, to be continually transformed. Pleasing to my Lord.

We desire to reach our fullest potential in Christ. That can only be attained by surrendering all to His guidance and not giving up. In my weakness, His strength is revealed! Praise the Lord!

I want you to know, that we are so thankful for our relationship with you!!!
It is in these relationships that we are able to see more clear. 1 Corinthians 13:12-13.

Grateful for His grace and with so much love,
~Amanda

Craig Knight is 3-0!

Posted by 4knights in CRAIG-XO, Family/Friends, Life/LOVE January 23, 2012

I am so nuts about him………

You are wonderful. In every way.

30. Fili B’s.. yes, please! His fave place to grub. 29. Did someone say Dr. Pepper?! If only it was healthy enough to replace H2O. 28. Handy-Man. He is our Bob the Builder! ha. If he doesn’t know how to fix it, he will figure it out. 27. Humble and patient. 26. His name is tattooed on my hip. And he loves it. 25. ‘He sees a need, a he meets it.’ 24. He’d love to be survivor-man or a fighter pilot. 23. When it comes to date-night, he’d rather be together on our couch than out with a crowd. 22. Someday he’d love to live far away in a wide open space. 21. He loves our children with his whole heart, with his priorities, with his time, with his hands. He wears his heart on his sleeve and you can’t be around us very long without seeing how into his family he is. We are blessed!! 20. He sees our children with his heart. 19. He communicates… and prays. 18. His #1 is Jesus Christ! 17. He drives a fire truck and gets to serve others. 16. Hard-worker. 15. He fights for what is true and righteous. No matter if it’s difficult or not popular. 14. When he is wrong, he is the first to admit it. He doesn’t need the approval of others. Whom will you serve? For this guy, it’s wholeheartedly the Lord! 13. He listens more than he speaks. 12. He doesn’t anger easily. 11. Fun is as important as sleep. 10. He fights to keep an eternal perspective in all things. 09. Home-Depot lover. 08. Eager to learn. 07. He is the kind of man that asks why and how. 06. Enjoys candy more than vegetables. 05. Despises structured exercise. He loves activity and working on projects. 04. Family-time is the best time. 03. He is a tee-shirt and jeans, hat-guy. 02. Jeremy Camp is his favorite singer. 01. His wife is his biggest cheerleader.

Happy Birthday to you…
Happy Birthday to you…
Happy 30th Birthday to the man of my dreams…
Happy Birthday to you, Craig!
I love you with all of me… forever.

I praise God for YOU and am so blessed that he chose ME for YOU. It brings me so much joy to watch you grow and lead and love. Our Perfect Father reveals so much of Himself through you because of your abandoned faith and relationship with Him. You make me strive to be the best version of me. Thank you for giving me unconditional love. Thank you for holding my hand so tightly and leading me into the most painfully beautiful places because you knew that is where He was. Oh’ the Lord’s perfection. When we started dating you were 19… and now, 30! Look at where we have come!!!! It excites me to my core to grow old with you… I am who I am, because you are you. Quitting is not an option. All of me, is all for you. From you, Kyler and Kaiden will know what it means to love and lead… and Audrey will know what to look for in a husband. She looks to you for admiration. I love the way you talk to her and tell her how beautiful she is. To our boys, you are hero. I admire your humility as a father and how you point them to Jesus by the way you live…the way you love….

I could go on on…

ah… my Love, Happy 30th Birthday!

…Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate. -Mark 10:9

Posted by 4knights in CRAIG-XO, Family/Friends, GOD is amazing, Life/LOVE, This is me., Truth/Inspirational January 18, 2012

Our dear Sister-in-Christ said that we go together like peanut butter and jelly…….

Craig and I renewed our vows on the beach in Cancun.

When we got married, almost nine years ago, we weren’t who we are today.
We didn’t get married in the Spirit.

This time… was different.
Incredible. Perfect!!!!!
In every way.

The Lord’s plans are unfathomable. He is sooooo good!

To us, this was (other than the days we met our children) the BEST moment of our life!

We went to Cancun excited to have a great time with our friends.
We came home from Cancun united, stronger and more crazzzyy in love than ever.

I looked at Craig on the airplane, the sunlight was coming through the window and hitting his face – his eyes glistened. He looked hotter than ever. It was an overwhelming moment of… LOVE. God’s love. Craig’s love. Our love. It was a whoa-God moment… a whoa moment that my husband is.. my husband. My best friend. My peanut butter.

Our vows weren’t planned or thought out before hand. Our vows were made in the Spirit, from our hearts.
It was just the three of us – God, Craig and I.

…a cord of three strands is not quickly broken. Ecclesiastes 4:12

Shame on me for ever trying to ‘figure out’ what the Lord is doing. His faithfulness, grace, love and plans are so overwhelmingly unfathomable. I will TRUST! Always. Because He is God! He is MUY BUENO! You can’t reason the things of the Lord. You can’t be led by the Spirit and by reasoning.

I’ve fallen in love all over again.. but harder.. for my man.

It’s new. It’s HOT!

It’s all because of our Lord, Jesus Christ.

Wherever You lead us, we will go!
Whatever You have for us, we want!

Lord, let YOUR will be DONE in ALL things!!!!!!!!

We were so excited to get back to Kyler, Kaiden and Audrey!

. . .

May our love for each other bring glory to His name.
May our love point our children to the perfect love of the Father.
May we walk in the Spirit all the days of our life.
May our children become who they have been created to be.

We pray that you, too, are overwhelmed by the Father’s PERFECT love!
We are so thankful for all the relationships in our life!

With LOVE,
Mr. & Mrs. Craig Knight

May this year be your best yet!

Posted by 4knights in AUDREY, Family/Friends December 31, 2011

Snow Sleddddddding!

Posted by 4knights in Family/Friends, GOD is amazing, KAIDEN, KYLER, Life/LOVE, Videos December 30, 2011

We had the best time with our dear friends.

Ah. the BEST!

We love this family!!!!!! sooooo much.

Justin, Liz, Savannah and Ben. Not pictured: Allie – who got to stay with and enjoy her G&G all to herself.

Cute kids. Special friends. Cabin fun.

Kyler, Savannah, Kaiden and Ben put on a Nativity Scene play for us.

Kyler was Joseph.
Savannah was Mary.
Kaiden was baby Jesus.
Ben was the donkey.

Here is Kaiden (with some of his dinner on his face) as baby Jesus.
With Savannah’s pronunciation: ‘Geez-US.’

I absolutely love this picture of Craig & Kaiden!

Kaid went down SEVERAL times SOLO!
He LOVED sledding.

And then they rested.

Us adults equally had a BLAST on the sled run too! We laughed so hard. It was like being on a day date while Audrey was napping and the other four played inside the cabin. Craig went down with no hands. We went down as couples. Liz and I went down together and with passing time, the run only got faster and the jumps, higher! During all the fun, we didn’t think of capturing a video. The videos we do have is from when we first started sledding and the jumps seem like baby jumps compared to what they became!

Here is one video of our boys going down the run at the beginning of our sledding fun: Look at far they go!

The Lord truly blessed our time together………

We can’t wait until our next visit with them.

Oh January… you are going to be a good month.

Posted by 4knights in Random/Fun December 30, 2011

2012, I can’t wait for what you hold. Oh January… you are going to be a good month. House all organized and cleaned. I love purging the junk! Today is a new day! And tonight, soccer!!!!

me & my little brother.

Posted by 4knights in Family/Friends, This is me. December 26, 2011

Ok, not-so-little.

Younger.

He made our Christmas evening sweeter than our Christmas dessert.

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A few weeks ago, I surprised my brother with a venus fly trap.

Wait. Ok. Let me back-track.

He’s told me this story several times and it goes a little something like this:

[my brother to me]
I’ll never forget the time that you got mad at me,
and purposefully, knocked my Venus Fly Trap off the counter onto the floor.

I have no recollection of this story. But, he did. It hurt him. I hurt him.

The most recent time he had mentioned the story, we were sitting by our fire pit… and it was all in laughter. Even so, I was well aware of the truth that you can’t go through this life without being hurt and hurting others.

Because we are human. Imperfect.

“I’ve got to see you ASAP!:)” I wrote on his FB wall on December 7 @ 7:23pm.

With Michael and his beautiful wife, Katelyn, in my living room… I apologized and asked for his forgiveness. Not just for out of my anger, immaturity and emotion, knocking over and ultimately killing his brand new venus fly trap that he had gotten from school when we were little kids…. but for all of the memories that he has of our childhood when I was a selfish brat. I know I was. I know I don’t remember all the details that he might and vise versa. But, I do know that I wasn’t then who I am now. I also know that I would never act in ways that I used to view as acceptable.

I love you, Bro.

I am so proud of my brother.
His heart.
His maturity.
His authenticity.

Before the night was over, he killed a fly and fed it to his plant.

It was pretty awesome.

As is he.
As is He.

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I KNEW that I had to buy Mike a venus fly trap before I knew what a venus fly trap was.

I could have found out by my dear friend google. But no. I (oh’ so) excitedly told Craig: I have to figure out how to make a venus fly trap and give it to my brother!!! [insert his jokes and laughter here]

Really. All these years and I thought I knocked over some sort of wooden bug-trap like box with net walls. Something to “trap” flies in… a bug trap! That he had made.

When I realized that I had killed a fragile plant that he had grown from a seed, I felt like an even bigger jerk.

Think of this new plant as a love fern.

I am glad he liked his gift.

And that I now know what a venus fly trap is.

Comfort and… JOY.

Posted by 4knights in GOD is amazing December 25, 2011

We hope your Christmas was wonderful.

The greatest gift of all – Perfect Love.

A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. She gets up while it is still night; she provides food for her family and portions for her female servants. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.” Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. Honor her for all that her hands have done, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.

Air Force One!

This is… {sigh}… Our Song.

Your grace is enough!